Missing The Sales

I hope everyone reading this had an awesome Christmas
Because I'd hate to be the only one
It was great to catch up with all the family again
And I got plenty of nice presents :)
I also got to see Zak which was nice
Even though last night presented itself with a few added complications to my already touchy situation.
And no, I don't have time to explain it now.
HOWEVER.
I'd like to blog a little about the Skyline.
My wonderful grandparents lent me their second car, a 1990 Nissan R31 Skyline.
It's a lovely car to drive, my only complaint so far is that there is a tape stuck in the stereo and hence the radio won't play radio.. which is annoying because I got an iPod for Christmas with an FM transmitter.. so I can't really use it yet.
On top of that the aerial is broken so the radio just gets mostly static anyway.
D:
BUT on the other side, it's a clean reliable car, and I'm hoping it will serve me well and that I'll look after it.
I know I will.
The petrol bill is my biggest worry at the moment, but we'll see how it goes I guess.
I'm off to work today, then to the Alley's when I finish (yay!!!)
But yes, work starts in 57 minutes so I best get dressed and eat something.

Merry Boxing Day?
Hahaha.
Either way,
make
it
count.

x

Won't Be Seventeen Forever

This has to be quick, it's 9:49 and I have to be at work by 10:30.
That wouldn't be a problem except that I am sitting here, not dressed, haven't eaten breakfast..
Anyway.
I haven't blogged in three weeks, and so much has happened.
I've met people, I've been to Brisbane, I've worked lots..
AND TOMORROW I TURN EIGHTEEN.
It's actually really scaring me today.
Especially because.. by the time I finish work, it will be midnight, therefore my birthday.
Also, in a mere 23.5 hours I am going for driving lessons, and subsequently a driving test.
No doubt I'll blog tomorrow with either a short message saying I passed, or a HUGE bitch about how I didn't.
Perhaps one of the most interesting developments in my recent life has been in an area where I normally have very little luck.
Somehow, I've managed to get myself entwined in a little mess..
And it all started with a random unlikely hookup at Ned's party on Friday.
It was a good night, by the way.
What the outcome will be, I have a fairly good idea. I just don't want to say it because it probably comes under the heading of "having your cake and eating it too" which I don't understand, despite Amy's attempts to get it through my head.
I think my idea works well, but it could be seen as disrespectful. Possibly.

Bah.

I have to go get ready for work..
Get this.
10:30-5 at Telechoice. 5:30-midnight at Boost.

Not even kidding.

Shoot
me
now.
=P

x

If Only It Was Saturday

So it's fair to say I've had a busy week.
Sure, it's Tuesday so I can't really say its the beginning/end of a week, but who cares.
Last Monday I got my Epi-Dull, I forget whether I blogged about it yet or not..

Tuesday I started my new job at Telechoice.
Wednesday..... I worked there again.
Thursday was work again but at Boost.
Friday.....Telechoice again.
BUT THEN
Valedictory.
IT WAS AWESOME FUN!
Also I pretty much worked every day last week.
BUT NOT THIS WEEKEND.
Saturday consisted of shopping, driving and training to Werribee.
Followed by eight hours of drinking, nineteen hours of fun and zero hours of sleep.
Sunday consisted of.. well.. more than half of it was blended with the previous night, in a blur of alcohol, watermelon and James.
After that I spend several hours on many trains, and also some time with Adam which was awesome too.
I also wrote a more detailed account of Saturday night/Sunday morning, but it's staying within the confines of My Documents, sorry to any who are reading this. Which is probably not many people!

Yesterday I worked..
Also, got chiropracted.
Today...
You guessed it!
WORK AGAIN.
And tomorrow. And Thursday. AND Friday.

But then, to Brisbane on Saturday.
(Y)

For eight days.
Then... home again home again jiggity jig.
Which reminds me of English.. hahahaha.

Ehh. For now, I think I should actually consider going to sleep.

END.

?

I forgot to name this post.

SO
Whats going on?
Well.. I have my hazard perception test today.
I also will hopefully be getting my crappy eBay Dell (Y)

ALSO IT'S THIRTY DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!
Which is exciting.
Also, I START MY NEW JOB TOMORROW!
Thats right.
I got a job at Telechoice, one of the Optus shops in Eastland.
And I start tomorrow!
How exciting.

Also.. in the world of celebs...
I found out this morning that Pete Wentz and Ashlee Simpson (bleh) had a child.
And it's name is none other than..
Bronx Mowgli Wentz.
BMW.
lolololololololololol.

AND MILEY CYRUS HAS A REASONABLY ATTRACTIVE TWENTY YEAR OLD BOYFRIEND WHO GETS AROUND IN UNDERWEAR.
That made me laugh.

Moreover. I got my E65 back on Friday. (Y)

ALSO this morning I have to change my driving lesson from Thursday because I'm working.

Hmmm. What else. I'm hungry. FOR SOME CEREAL!
Actually I could go a drink of some sort too.
Maybe.... I shall go and eat breakfast.
Or drink breakfast. Either way.


IF the Dull (err..Dell) turns up today (fingers crossed!!) I shall post later using it.

UNTIL THEN

I bid you

Good day.

x



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Now playing: Michelle Branch - Everywhere
via FoxyTunes

Towards the light

So it's late.
And I should be asleep, on account of my appointment to help dad tomorrow at like, 9.

I could go. BUT I WON'T!

So, things are good.
But I still feel lonely.
Despite all the friends I have.
But yeah.
It's alright.

I am in love with this Nikorette song (unreleased as yet) by Conor Oberst and The Mystic Valley Band, Stacey and I saw them perform it on Conan O'brian the other day!

Awesome fun we had that night, we were up til 4-something watching Lizzie McGuire, NCIS, and Rocko's Modern Life among other things.

We also made pancakes in the morning, but it was more like afternoon by the time we actually got them.
AND Vickie of course was there too, it was just generally awesome.

This weekend I've just worked heaps.. thats all.
But I feel good!
Despite lack of sleep.

Which I should try to rectify, as of... now.

OH AND.
Laptop this week!
Exciting.
Details to follow.

=]


Wolf.



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Now playing: Conor Oberst - NYC-Gone, Gone
via FoxyTunes

At The Bottom Of Everything

Wow.
I haven't blogged in too long, I know.
Well. Let's start with..
My exams are done.
School is virtually over.
I knew it would get to this day, I mean duh it had to come eventually.
But I feel different to what I thought I would.
I thought I'd be more emotional.
I thought I'd care more.
But today seemed to pass pretty normally, apart from the sunburn.
I'm making a list, of everything I have to do during these holidays.
It should be an epic list, a pretty long one too.
I'll post the list items up here once I complete them.. I think.

Also, I have short hair. At the moment my profile picture thing doesn't show that.. but it really is short.
That was three weeks ago, today.
It seems so much closer, I think the last couple of weeks have really, really flown.
Which isn't unusual in the slightest.. but it's.. unsettling somewhat.
I don't want the next three months to just disappear!
I am going to commit myself to making them very worthwhile and fun, lots of fun.

I could type so much more, about like, everything that's been in my head over the last few weeks, but I won't.

I will say, however, that after almost 5 weeks, I want my phone back.
It's currently in the Optus Repair Centre in Sydney.
I was told it'd take about 2 weeks, and it's been 5!
I'm less than impressed.
I miss my mobile Wi-Fi! And other such luxuries.. like a battery that lasts longer than a day or two..
Although, I'm going to miss the V3x's camera. It craps all over the E65's.
And I'll miss the flipping!
:(

Small things amuse small minds.

Also, this is in case Zaak decides to read this, which he might or he might not.
TALK TO ME ALREADY!
Apparently you quite your job.
Apparently things have been changing.
Apparently you could use a friend.
Apparently you've chosen that friend to be Renae, or at least you've decided you can reply to her messages but not mine.
Sure, I can hardly compare myself to Renae.
But I try.
If you change your mind.
Let me know.
If you aren't going to, let me know, so I can stop wondering and worrying and wasting credit.

Please?

x
Wolf.



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Now playing: Regina Spektor - The Call
via FoxyTunes

All We Know Is Falling

So yeah, I may have taken that title from somewhere.
But hey. It works.
On a couple of levels.
In case you didn't know, I really hate change.
Absolutely abhor it.
In most cases.

And apparently I'm in for a bit of it over the next little while and I'm a little worried as to how it'll all go.
ALSO I feel like a disappointment to Stacey because I didn't blog about our epic fun Monday night last week, or about our epic fun trip to Croydon, the vet, and Vickie's on Thursday.

But they were fun.
And I love Stacey.
Epically.

Stuff changes.
We'll see how much it all changes I guess.
Also there's someone I need to talk to.


Wish
me
luck.
x

Metallic Bonding

No. Nothing to do with chemistry.
This post is dedicated to the large silver chunk of metal currently occupying our driveway, otherwise known as the Peugeot.
Of the last thirty-two hours, I have spent about three or so behind the wheel.
Sure, I've driven almost a hundred hours in that car over the last twenty one months.
But I was thinking, today, as I drove down the highway, how much I appreciate this car, despite how awful it is.
I know, I already blogged about it awhile ago.
But this is different.
I forget how, but I did actually have other things to say.
Okay.
For example.
The odometer currently reads...(I think) one hundred and forty eight thousand, six hundred and fifty.. or thereabouts.
This is complete crap of course, and there is possibility that the car has actually travelled two or three times that.
But still. It behaves nicely most of the time, apart from getting a little too warm quite often.
Despite having been driven for twenty three years.
I have to admit I had fun with the roundabouts that are randomly in the middle of (I think..) the South Gippsland Highway, the signs recommend 40km/h, I may have been slightly exceeding that.
However, getting the car back up to 100km/h again is... difficult.
Oh, funny though. I did impress myself today.
Set of lights in Cranbourne, three lanes that merge back to two after the lights.
I was in the middle lane, a few hundred metres from the lights. There was this guy, some P-plater who I'd been behind for AGES, in the left lane. Only like, one other car there. So the lights go green, and I'm like, okay, it's worth a go.
Swing out into the left lane, give it a bit of a kick (almost enough to convince the car not to shift to 2nd, which is a very bad thing), managed to get in front of almost all the cars (most importantly, the slow van with a trailer on it (Y) ) and ended up behind the P-plater again.
In fact, I was behind him all the way until the Monash Freeway turn off. Haha, I reckon he would have thought I was following him. For sure.
I sort of was, but more for fun, to amuse myself.
SO yes. The car had to put up with my game. But I was nice, I swear I kept my eye on the temperature gauge the whole trip... probably spent more time looking at it than I did the speedo, or the road for that matter. Haha.
Nah. It was a good drive though. But very uninteresting, no fun winding roads, just straight, one-hundred-kays-an-hour freeway.
Roadworks though, down to eighty. Sixty for awhile, which was very hard after doing one hundred for such a long time.
But I tell you, eighty is a lovely placid speed to drive at, the car and I both appreciated it a lot I think.
And, also. As we left this morning, Bev remarked that it has a nice purr, and I was so proud. Haha. It does, when it's behaving.

***
I LOVE BLOGGER.
My stupid Firefox decided to crash, I think for only the second time EVER.
And I thought I lost my whole post.
BUT NO!
It saves drafts. Haha.
How amazingly useful.


Anyway.. I think I've exhausted most of what I can say about this wagon which seems to have become quite important to me.
Sure, it's not the most important thing in my life, not by a long shot.
But I'd miss it,
If
it
was
gone.

x

VET0111

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Now playing: MGMT - Electric Feel
via FoxyTunes

Recently hilarious things that are worth blogging about...

-yesterday Mirko ran into a door
-yesterday also, Stacey and I started making anagrams with our names.. including "'Yes it can' mart" and "Yes I C man tart" AND combined, "Tor is Jeanne fat? Yes"
-again yesterday, Stace and I made some weird smoothie with guava juice, ice, icecream and fruit
-yesterday.. Stace: "How do we make a smoothie?" Me: "I dunno." Stace: "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! You work at a smoothie place!"
There are more, like Forgetting Sarah Marshall which we watched yesterday. That was awkward but absolutely hilarious.
Ahh. We are going to Philip Island today, and I am of the opinion that the car needs an oil change first.. so I may just go and do that.
Woo!

VETO
aka
VET
zero
one
one
one.

x



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Now playing: VETO - You Are A Knife
via FoxyTunes

Twenty eight days later...

In twenty eight days, I will have finished all my exams.

The end.

Twenty one days until they begin, and twenty eight days until they are gone.

Which reminds me of a song.

Conor Oberst: NYC-Gone, Gone

Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a head that empty?
Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?

Down, down to Mexico City
Got myself a lady, she know how to treat me
Down, down to Mexico City
Got myself a lady to lay me down, lay me down

All my friends, want you to know
I'm gonna miss you when I go
But I'll see you down the road
Meet me at the station way down low, way down low

Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a head that empty?
Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?

Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a head that empty?
Gone, gone from New York City
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?
Where you gonna go with a heart that gone?

I
EPI-CLOVE
this
song.
x



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Now playing: Conor Oberst - NYC-Gone, Gone
via FoxyTunes

Friday I'm In Love

Contrary to the title, I think this is one of the most boring Friday nights ever.
I had school revision sessions today at Croydon, and then Vickie and I were at Eastland which was fun as!
However, this evening.. seems to be rather a let down.
It's Dad's birthday, which isn't bad at all but currently it's 11pm so not a lot is happening.
Everyone else bar Mum and Dad are asleep.
No one is online - or at least no one is talking to me.
And...the people I've been wanting to talk to for like..days... are still not here!
EPICLAME.

I have a chiro appointment in the morning, so I should sleep soon.
OH BUT ONE REALLY COOL THING HAPPENED TODAY.
I bought a bloody awesome tie with skulls on it. Just little ones.
Yay!
Flick will be proud. I haven't shown her yet.

But I will!!

Yay.

Today..
wasn't
so
bad.
=)

My Day Off..

Today
Is my day off.
I worked all weekend, and I really can't be bothered doing any work or study..
So I've declared it a write off.
This morning, I went with Judy and her kids
To see...
COLIN BUCHANAN!

Hahahaha.
It was a lot of fun.

It's one of the things I missed, in my childhood.
Going to a childrens concert.
But it was good!

Also, I'm going to Stacey's soon, and we're going to have a fun-filled afternoon of..something.
Because we're awesome like that.

Woohoo!!

=]

Love
today.

x

Ginger Kisses and Made-up Mathematics

I have a few funny things to write.. that have happened in the last couple of days..

Tonight, while sitting outside Meg's party...in Vickie's dad's car... he says:
"Quick! Hurry up! They're going to think we're terrorists..sitting outside..with a funny box."

Yesterday, at Stacey's.. Georgia:
"What can I make with a ... polygon?"
Me: "Did you say POÄNGLE?"

Tuesday, at Stacey's .. we were making ginger kisses, with ginger biscuits from 2005, and Stacey tried to eat one but then spat it out and threw it away.
But...we figured the cream would soften them, so we made them anyway...
We got down to the last one, and because Stacey had thrown one out there was an odd one left, so we made a three-layer one.
Then...she remembered she had some leftovers from another packet she had been eating, so she got out the box...and opened it... AND THERE WERE THREE LEFT! We both just burst out laughing, almost fell over because it was so hilarious, we could have just made normal ones if we'd looked BUT NO, we ended up with all these normal ones and two 3-layer ones. Also the cream in the middle was purple, and therefore awesome.

Also yesterday at Stacey's...
"Jenny's a.. Jenny.. Jenny.."
"I like Shepard because it's a flock."

ALSO AT STACEY'S YESTERDAY (yes I spend a LOT of time there, and it's always funny)..
"I saw an eagle on a pole... I think it was an eagle..."

Ahh.
And there were more tonight.
But I forget many of them.
Apart from "OH Vickie you're so fine..." etc. Hahaha.

Also.
Adam.
I hope you don't read this.
But if you do.
I think you're just screwing with my head.
And if you care..just bloody well say so.
Say something.
I'll wait, you know me.
I'll hang around for no reason, just because I think it's a good idea. Or because you tell me to.
Yeah, I'm a pushover.
Use it to your advantage, like so many others.

Dammit.

Going.to.sleep.

Looking forward to what?

I considered it something to look forward to.
There was not a promise,
But a likelihood.
And I took that as good enough to hope for.
But it seems that I have possibly been wasting so much time
So much thought
And so much emotion.

Maybe, I am just overthinking it.

But I have a massive feeling that what I think is true.

Sure, it may not happen often.

But maybe this time I'll get lucky.

In one way
or
another.

Wrong.

It's wrong.
All wrong.
First off, I should be sleeping.
I shouldn't have worked 10 hours yesterday.
I shouldn't have been out late 2 nights in a row.
I shouldn't have been up early 2 mornings in a row.
I should not have messed up the OSPF configuration in our competition today.
I should not feel the way I do, about certain people.

BUT I DO.
What the hell can I do?
I shouldn't be worried about the end of school.
I shouldn't be awake still.
I shouldn't be so hard on myself, maybe.

BUT I AM.
Is it all screwed up?
And why?
Why have I screwed it up so badly?

Why are people so hypocritical?
And so contradictory?
They say one thing..
Then do another.
Or, say another thing to someone else, or somewhere else.

They don't care.
They couldn't give a shit either way.
Maybe they're a complete waste of time and emotion.

ONLY
TIME
WILL
TELL.

x

(PS. MOTHERFUCK.)

The End

I have a lot of trouble with a lot of things.
I have trouble understanding why people do things
I have trouble accepting the fact that in merely weeks I will be rid of high school forever
I have even more trouble accepting, and understanding, myself.

It seems to me that I take everything to an extreme.
If I laugh, it's usually very loudly, and at something very stupid.
If I am annoyed, it's usually shown in a loud and obnoxious way, and it's often caused by the most insignificant thing.
If I have feelings for someone, they are usually pretty strong, they come on quickly and can also disappear just as suddenly.
And my own emotions, most of the time I am either in a good mood or a bad mood, not in between.
It seems static, almost.
Like, I only have two options.
A switch. On or off.

I could be wrong though.
I may be basing these claims on the last few days, but I'm pretty sure it hasn't changed much.

And I like that. I don't do change very well.
Which is why I am having such a struggle with this end-of-school thing.
It will be such a massive difference, this year compared with next year.
And in between, I have WEEKS of holidays, in which to do basically whatever the hell I want.
Most likely it will consist of work, getting my license, getting a car, driving.....that's about it.

Narrow minded much?

But hey. I've waited long enough.
My license test is booked for my birthday..which is..3 months and 13 days away.

Between now and then..
Eight exams.
Cisco x2
Further x2
Biology
English
Methods x2.

So..
More than likely I will be neglecting this blog of sorts..
Not that anyone will really care.
I'll still be here.
Just not.. here.

As for this year.
My school days.
Life as I know it?

Our
Time
Is
Running
Out.

=/

One Whole Minute

In the past 48 hours
I have become completely obsessed with two different songs..
Both of which I shall post here
Because they are currently awesome.
I would like to point out, that as I do, I will most likely get bored of them
But not today.
So here they are...

Paramore: Crushcrushcrush

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
You need something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

Metro Station: Shake It

Let's drop!
Yeah, come on

I'll take you home
If you don't leave me at the front door
(Leave me at the front door)
Your body's cold
But girl, we're gettin' so warm
And I was thinking of ways
That I could get inside
(Get inside)

Tonight you're falling in love
Let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up
Here we go now

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Your lips tremble
But your eyes are in a straight stare
(In a straight stare)
We're on the bed
But your clothes are laying right there
And I was thinking of places
That I could hide
(I could hide)

Tonight you're falling in love
Let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up
Here we go now

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

I saw you dancing
And I couldn't get you off my mind
I could tell that you could tell
That I was taking my time
But I was thinking of ways
To get you to stay tonight
Body's shaking
Tell me off so I can turn off the lights

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
Shake shake,
Shake it

Yes.
There you have it..
A small insight into my brain for the last couple of days

OH BUT. I have one more.

Bright Eyes: Easy/Lucky/Free

Did it all get real? I guess it's real enough
They got refrigerators full of blood
Another century spent pointing guns
At anything that moves
Sometimes I worry that I've lost the plot
My twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts
I never really dreamed of heaven much
Until we put him in the ground
But it's all I'm doing now
Listening for patterns in the sound
Of an endless static sea
But once the satellite's deceased
It blows like garbage through the streets
Of the night sky to infinity

But don't you weep
(Don't you weep for them)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
Honey, don't you weep
(Don't you weep for them)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
As easy
Or free

Don't be a criminal in this police state
You'd better shop and eat and procreate
You've got vacation days, then you might escape
To a condo on the coast
I set my watch to the atomic clock
I hear the crowd count down until the bomb gets dropped
I always figured there'd be time enough
I never let it get me down
But I can't help it now
Looking for faces in the clouds
I've got some friends I barely see
But we're all planning to meet
We'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
All together for eternity

But don't you weep
(Don't you weep for us)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is no one as lucky
Honey, don't you weep
(Don't you weep for us)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
As easy
Or free

Or free
Or free
Or free

There is nothing
There's nothing
There's nothing


I have Stacey to thank for that last one..
And the first one, actually.

I think, combined, they sum up what I've been thinking lately.
If you take small parts from each
Yes.

I know what I'm talking about.
I have a messed up head.

THE END!
I have to go.

:O

The New Voyager

By the way, Zaak...



I am ashamed to say..

Whilst I am still a massive fanboy of the old Voyagers

I do kinda like this new one a little better than I did before.

Except from the back, it's ugly as.

888

So 8 is lucky in China, and today is 8/08/08.
No surprises then that the Beijing Olympics begin today
But who am I kidding, everyone in the damn world knows that
I shouldn't be writing such pointless information
But who cares, it's my damn blog!
Which, I might add, has to some degree replaced the journal which I have attempted to keep over the past couple of years
Which would be fine,
Apart from the unfortunate fact that I ramble about absolutely nothing for most of it
Which I'm currently doing
Which will most likely discourage people from reading this
Which.. in turn.. may not be such a bad idea
Because then.. I could post whatever I wanted
Divulge all my feelings
Secrets
Things that happen which I don't want people to know about
But..
Alas..
This being the internet
At least someone is guaranteed to read this
No matter how crappy it is
Which...in this case, epic crapness comes to mind.

BUT ANYWAY
I probably had something else to say
OH
Production
Now..
I saw Anything Goes last night, the school production this year.
And I have to say,
Zaak and I both came to the conclusion that it is epic.
Very impressive cast, minus a couple..
But overall, brilliant.
Awesome orchestra, also.
There were a huge amount of technical screw-ups, but all due to crappy failing equipment, not crappy failing operators..haha

So here we are, it's 22:00 on the dot and the Olympics are starting
Why?
Because they are.
Ohgod my Firefox thinks it's going to be 5 degrees and snowing here on Sunday
Somehow..I doubt that.
However, I will post something about it if it does happen.
BACK TO THE OLYMPICS
For whatever reason, China is trying to out-do every other Olympics ever
And apparently I should watch it because it will help me be able to give examples for my English Language stuff
But I disagreed, with "There's nothing linguistic about floating rings."
Ah dear.

Today
Flick and I made some of the most brilliant desserts ever
Cherry cheesecake..
A chocolate and strawberry tart of sorts..
AND
Zaak gingerbread.
Yes, that's right..
Gingerbread that had 'ZAAK' carved into it.

Unfortunately we didn't really get to sample the former two in full, but tomorrow..
Ohh..
It's going to be an epic feast.

And in closing..
A quote from last night's production..

"And if, to come home you fail...
I'll open all your mail..
SO
Buddy..
Beware!"

x

E65 > iPhone

Zaak.. this is your fault.

I have decided, to compare my E65 to an iPhone.
This is of course in favor of Maddox, who compared his Nokia E70 to an iPhone
He makes such arguments that I agree with and can adapt to my E65, including..
-my E65 has Wi-Fi, and a web browser
-it plays MP3's
-it supports Flash/Java, UNLIKE the iPhone
-it does MMS (which I had on my 6220 in 2003)
-it records voice, which can then be set as a ringtone or whatever (which Motorola's don't do either, by the way)
-voice dialling? COME ON! My crappy Nokia 3330 (made in 2001) had voice dialling (the fact that I hardly use it is irrelevant.. I used it once to call Stacey a couple of weeks ago)
-my E65 slides, much to the amusement of a certain Zaak..
-E65 has GPS now also, but only because I bought a GPS receiver (still wouldn't be nearly as expensive as an iPhone)

I had a few more points to make...
But they shall have to be added later.

RAWR!

E65 FTW.

More to the story

This kinda joins onto my last post
In a way.. anyway
This has been happening to me for awhile
I'm trying to think of the first time
Possibly last year
Concerning a specific person
Who I met
And who I became quite fond of
And recently
I think I'm noticing it happening more
And I really don't know why

But..
This is what I think
I seem to

I don't know whether it's
'attract'
or
'be attracted to'
People.. who
For whatever reason, they need help
Not like
They have stuff wrong with them
But I think there is something not right in their life
And for some stupid reason
I take it upon myself to try to fix it
And so far, each time, it has ended badly
Mostly because I end up attracted to the person
And most of the time
It's just... not going to happen

I realise
That I've kinda spat this out and most likely it will make very little sense
If any at all..
And it's hard to explain
It's easier with examples
But I'm not really willing to give them given the circumstances
Anyway
That is my thought lately
On me
And my..
People.


Try to make sense of it?

One last thing.

Is Don.
Is broke.

x

It has been twelve days since my last post
I have been meaning to write..
But stuff has been busy
I guess..
School, work, etc.
But I do have a few thoughts, maybe a few complaints to make

Firstly
I've been thinking lately
About stuff
As I tend to do, unfortunately
For one..
I have a thing for emo's
I like the look
I find it cute, almost innocent
But somehow lost, maybe in themselves I don't know..
I know so many people hate them
But I quite like them
Particularly the hair
Oh..the hair..
It astounds me, all of a sudden it is amazingly popular, everywhere
But there will always be people who disagree, as I disagree with many things
Each to their own,
Me to my emo.
Hahah..

What else.. a complaint?
OH.
Here we go.
Can I just say..
IT IS 'McDonalds', not 'MACDONALDS', THERE IS NO A IN MC!
It's like people who call Eastland 'Eastlands'
It's one letter, but for cryin' out loud, spell stuff properly
Ohh, there is probably SO much more..

But that's all I can think of right now.
And to finish...
Repeated, because it makes me laugh....

Me
To
My
Emo.

x

Lazy

Well, apparently I am epically lazy and HAVEN'T POSTED FOR AGES!
Seriously not that much has happened
But still probably some stuff that is worth blogging....
Nonetheless I haven't done it
Just wanting to tell anyone out there who happens to read this that
I AM STILL HERE
lol.

Hopefully I will actually write something worthwhile soon.

The
Wolf
Is
In.

x



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Now playing: Taxiride - Forest For The Trees
via FoxyTunes

Daze Of Our Lies

Haha, good times..
Daze Of Our Lies is the name of the soap opera that Mel and Stacey tried to create
For a media project last year
It was clearly modelled on another soap, one that I've never seen so I can't comment on it.
Today at Stacey's we watched all our hilarious bloopers
And we laughed..
A lot.
It was great fun, always a lark with Stacey =P
Vickie was there too
And the three of us put together are pretty damn awesome.

I bought a new battery for my laptop, hopefully it will have arrived by next week
Hopefully!
I also bought more RAM for it.. it's going to be pretty spectacular soon =P

Anyway.. I think I need to go eat dinner.
Then I'm going to Flick's, to sleep over with Amy =]
Yayy!

The
Week
Goes
On.

x

Of Late

So… a lot has actually happened recently

I’ve just been way too lazy to write anything about it

I have a laptop, for a start..

Which I am presently using to type this blog!

It’s pretty fantastic, except it needs a new battery
But that’s the thing about a free laptop
I don’t mind spending some money to get it up to scratch

It will be fantastic for school

And also for my random late nights

Such as tonight

It’s currently 2am on the dot

So in 12 hours I will be seeing Stacey!

Anyway. Since it is such a ridiculous hour

I will refrain from telling a small portion of my life story

And go to bed!

Also

To Stacey
I

Live

You.

x

And that is not a type-o

=D

You're like a rollercoaster

Actually, I think I am like a rollercoaster
But it's from a song that is quite awesome
So I thought I'd use it

The last few posts of mine have been pretty good
Positive
etc
But today is going to change just a little
I had a fun night last night though
Just to put that in
And, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Daniel for tomorrow!

Moreover.. on a different note
I am still a lonely wolf.
To be honest
I am too lazy to extrapolate
But that is my problem...
I am lonely.

The
End.
x

The Raging River Of Syrup

The last few days
Have been pretty bloody good
Yesterday was the debutante ball
Fantastic day for everyone
I had an awesome time
With everyone!
Also at Amy's last night/this morning

Today I spent some time with Stacey
We also had a great time
Doing hilarious things with her computer
I showed her photos of the deb
We drew pictures
We made the computer talk
In it's hilarious voice that always makes us laugh
AND
We had dinner
AND
Spoke to Amy on the phone..who also made us laugh lots
ANDDD
Went to the Pancake Parlour and had a nice hot fudge sundae
Which I promptly drowned in maple syrup..
And there were almost rivers of the stuff
Flowing down across the icecream
It was funny!!
Afterwards we went and got lemon, lime and bitters' from Coles
And took photos of the Noddy car which was freaking us out a little
The elevator provided great entertainment while we were waiting for our lift home
And I managed to confuse the thing by stopping half way between floors
So it thought we were somewhere, but we actually weren't
I stopped it because Gibbs does it all the time..
Most often when talking to Fornell
Or Madam Director
But we also re-enacted the time when Abby was huddled in the corner of the elevator
And Gibbs was hugging her because she was scared

Yes, we are NCIS enthusiasts!

Also..by some technological miracle, Stacey's old iPod..
Which was broken..
Has decided that it's going to work again
I restored it
And updated the software
So it all seems to be okay
We will just have to wait and see if it performs like all other technology
You think it's okay
But it isn't
I hope not!

Tomorrow should be fun.
Family, mothers day, yay.

Life is precious..
But
I
Love
It.

x

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DU!

<3

"I HAVE SWABS!"

Yes, that was the utterance from me when I arrived at Stacey's door this afternoon
Carrying 2 sterile swabs, like the ones they use in NCIS (hence me giving them to her)
We did a bacteria thing in biology
So I took a couple of swabs and gave them to Stace! Not the bacteria ones obviously
Haha
I am feeling so fantastic today
Just because
There is no reason not to

Just a random entry to say that today was good
Also, I look spectacularly sexy in my deb suit!

Just
As
I
Should.

x

On Top Of The World

I feel absolutely fantastic today
It's a welcome change from my usual
I did something today that I've been wanting to
And it was so easy
It went so well
And I'm very pleased

School was kinda boring, as school is
But I could not be happier right now
No, that's not true..
I could be
But I am way happy enough, to not care about feeling any better
Hahaha
And I am rambling again
But it is so worth it
I love today
And tomorrow will also be awesome, I hope
Bloody brilliant!

Love Life, is the motto of Boost, aka my work

They
Would
Be
Proud!
x

ANZAC

I decided that I wouldn't harp on about the ANZAC's
And how they fought with their lives
We all know
What amazing people they were
I don't need to reiterate that
Besides
It would ruin my mood
I don't feel overly happy
But definitely not negative
More just sentimental
But it's good
In a way
It is also fairly late
Mum and Dad are out
For the first time in years they left us at home
And went out
To a friend's 50th birthday, actually
They should be home soon I guess
I had this horrible image of them being in a car crash
Because I can hear the rain outside
But to be honest I think our car is made of plenty thick enough metal
To protect them
And besides
I highly doubt they will be in a crash
Why am I even talking about it!
Moving on.
I worked today, it was good but it seemed like it was so much longer than 5 hours
My room is a mess
A little like my head at the moment
But in a way the clutter seems normal
And expected
It's also quite warm in here

So
In conclusion
Today was worth living
And for that
I
Am
Glad.
x

All Fall Down

Happens to be the name of the song I'm listening to currently
But it just seemed appropriate
I feel like that today
I'm in the library
At school
Attempting to write an English essay
And it is definitely not working
I am surrounded by noisy people
Not to mention noisy thoughts
In English this morning
Miss Hall spoke about dysphemisms
And more specifically
How many offensive words have lost impact
And that no-one is offended by them anymore
I decided not to say that they annoy me
It annoys me
The fact that people think we can just shove all this crap
In the face of society
And we all get so used to it
Desensitised, I believe is the word
We did stuff about it in media last year

Anyway
School is it's usual deplorable self
My melancholy is really kicking in today
Sabotaging any chance of enjoying it
Not that there's a whole lot to enjoy
And I'm hungry...

Still a lonely wolf, I am
I can't name names
But I've recently discovered (and become quite interested in)
Someone
Who just radiates this essence of awesome
And somehow I've managed to get myself caught
In this feeling
I won't bother describing it
It's good though
But it is so unfounded
And possibly will end badly
But I hope not
Hopefully it will end well

Maybe
It's
Better
That
Way.
x

Birthday

Today is the birthday
Of my amazing friend Stacey
She is the epic age of 18
And I am proud to say I've known her since we were 4!
I don't have a whole lot else to say
But I love her dearly
And she is an amazing friend to me
Always has been
And hopefully
Always will be

Here for you Stace
Forever
And
A
Day.
x

Label

Back to school
Yay for year 12..
It's not all bad though
As much as I don't appreciate
The work
The stress that we supposedly are meant to have
I don't want to leave school
It means that
I have to do my own thing
I have to create my own routine
Which may prove slightly difficult
But I've always had this issue
'What do I do after I finish school?'
As though no one has ever had to do it before me
Overreacting seems to be a common occurrence for me
For whatever reason

Recent happenings
Well..
I am attempting to buy a laptop
A Dell Latitude D610
Ugly bugger of a thing
Chunky, but tough
Well suited to a business environment
Not that I'm in a business
But that just means it should easily deal with what I want it for
I have this weird feeling that if I do get it
I should name it
Hence the 'Label'
It needs a label
A name
Assuming I do actually get it
I have to work out if I can afford it
In conjunction with the deb ball
See
This is what happens when you have parents with no money
You have to pay for stuff
Not that I mind
And also
I have chosen to buy/pay for these two things
It's not like I had no choice
But I don't really do so well with the
Not-spending-money thing..
I mean yeah, I have money saved up
And I can't touch that money until I use it to buy a car
But it's not nearly enough for a car yet
Which is okay
I'm not 18 til December
But still
My justification for me buying anything
Has always been
You only live once
Now that I think about it
Mum said that to me the other day
"You only get one shot at life..
.. one.."
It was quite a sad conversation actually
There were tears, in fact
I started it
Of course
But on a totally different topic
Somehow
We managed to get to our current financial situation
Which is... less than impressive
Hence my paying-for-stuff
But
It's hard
See, I've reached a point where I'm just completely rambling
Blurting out stupid utterances that are so irrelevant
I got 92% on my last English Language SAC
I'm pleased

Okay..
Enough of my rambling

To those who read this

I
Love
You.

x

Stud

One last thing for tonight
A random memory

I was walking home
From the local shops
After running an errand for Mum
Buying a bottle of milk
Or something

Walking down the street
Some guy
Sitting with his mate outside the bakery
He looks at me
As I walk past
He says
"Hey! I've got a secret for you.."
Being a child
Of maybe 8, 9, 10-ish
I didn't think to ignore him
I walked a step or two towards him
And he says
"You have got the best red lips..
..that girls love to kiss..
..you're a stud mate, you're a stud!"
I walked off
A little scared
Not knowing what a stud was

Thinking back
I'm not sure why he said that to me
Him being a middle-aged-ish man
Me being a kid
But whatever

I think
He
Was
Wrong.

x

Silvaro

Silvaro is the name
Of my mothers car
In case you were wondering
I didn't name it
Dad did..
We have had said car for almost 8 years now
Longest we've had a car
Since I was born
Yes, it is 22 years old now
But I love it to pieces
I drive it sometimes
Whenever I drive, in fact
I drove a bit today
And I honestly enjoyed it
Wrestling with the steering wheel
To get the car to stay in a straight line
Along any road, smooth, rough, straight, or windy
It is somewhat irritating to drive
But once you know the tricks
It's okay
It stalled on me today, I think three times
Which is very unusual
Normally I can make it so it doesn't
But today
My feet seemed to be doing the wrong thing
How's that
An automatic car that stalls
Isn't it brilliant?
It starts again though
9 out of 10 times
Sometimes it requires encouragement
Like when you want to drive up big hills
I find the best thing is to get as fast as you can
Before the hill
Then it's a little easier

But I realised something today
Not that I didn't know it
But it just sort of
Made sense to me
If you drive it nicely
Gently
Smoothly
It gives you the same courtesy
It accelerates smoothly (albeit slowly)
It changes gears nicely
And it doesn't make weird noises
But if you encourage it too much
It will rev way too high
It will change gears with a nasty jerk
And it is generally
Unpleasant
But love it
And it will love you back

I realise I am talking about this car like it is a person
Even though
I am well aware
It is not
But it's part of our house
I guess
It's been in the driveway for nearly 8 years
As I previously mentioned


Anyway.
On to something else
I thought I lost my wallet
But I didn't
Well
I did
But it is in Ebony's boyfriend's car
Relief.

Also
The other day
I'm not sure I can be bothered telling the whole story
Basically
Alcohol
A spa
A mistaken feeling
All come together, to make me want to hit someone
No need to explain further
It was not fun, though
And it resulted in me thinking I lost my wallet
But Jess is okay
I hope
I think
I will see her tomorrow morning at 8am
Period zero, maths methods
Ouch.

Apologies to anyone who happens to read this
If it doesn't make sense
But
Too damn bad

Currently:
Starting to wonder
Why I'm
Here
Not
There.

x

Rayman!

On a lighter note for today
After work
We (my family)
Went to Eastland for dinner
Just randomly
And after we ate
My siblings and I traipsed off to EB Games
Because
They have their marvellous "2 for $50" offer
So I bought Rayman Raving Rabbids
And a recharge station
For the Wii
*massive smile*
So maybe now I'll have an excuse to play it
Because our current games
Well..
They are less than captivating
For me, anyway
So I'm quite pleased

I also want to make mention
This blog
I think I will intend to write in it quite frequently
Once every couple of days I guess

Sometimes stuff like this
Just events..
Other times
Like my other posts
Depressing thoughts
Haha.
Kidding
Just thoughts..

But for no real reason
Because I think a grand total
Of 3 people
Have actually heard about this blog

If by chance
There are some randoms out there
Reading me
Comment?
Email?
Something?!

x

I am not enough

I apologise in advance
If this is a little depressing and self-pitying
But lately I've been thinking
Maybe I'm not cut out for this world
The pain
The suffering
The corruption
The lack of justice
The drugs
The self-destruction
Of others, not so much myself
But just knowing it happens
Gets to me
Even those who live life so differently
Those who don't care
The party animals
The whores
The alcoholics
I could go on forever...
Our society is not all that pretty

In my opinion
It's a harsh reality
That's better left
Uncovered.

x

A hug is all I ask

I was in the city yesterday
With a beautiful boy
Who totally made my day
I wish he was here
So I could hold him
Because I'm upset
Not at anything in particular
Just...
At the world
And the lack of Adam in my presence
Yes, his name is Adam
And I hope to see him again soon
So I can hug him
More than once
If I had it my way I wouldn't let him go
We could just be
With each other

But I feel as though I'm getting too attached
Too soon
I tend to do that
But I really feel like it could...
Progress
I hope so anyway
He's someone I'd be so proud
To be with
Someone my parents would probably like
Not that that matters so much
Just makes it easier..

Anyway
I'm really glad I met him
And I hope I see him again
Sooner rather than later
And hopefully he forgives my.. incessant affection for him
I can't help it
It just..
Feels right

I don't have a lot more to say today
I did maths homework for a few hours
And managed to not accomplish much
It feels so insignificant
But I have to do it...
And fast, too

More satisfied than before
My feelings are out there
I still wish
I was
with
him.

x

The trouble with love is...

I'm hoping that not many people read this
They shouldn't
I mean... I've only told 2 people that this blog exists
And those two people are entitled to hear this story
But there are some people who aren't..

Anyway.

I have been looking for/wanting to find someone
To be in a relationship with
For.. awhile now
And in the past week
Somehow
I have managed to find
Not one
Not two
But three, potential people

And two of them happened last night
I won't name names
But one of them was quite surprising
And...
I'm quite looking forward to pursuing all three
Not in the same way...
But to see what happens with them all
And hopefully
Some good will come of it

Provided I do the right thing
It should be
Great.

Depending on what happens
My parents may or may not find out
And who's to say whether they'll be impressed (uh, here's a clue, AMAZINGLY IMPOSSIBLE)
or not (absolutely certain).

I probably have some more words
Floating around in my head
To export into this box

But they are lost.

x

Footsteps

I am fortunate enough to have a number of awesome friends
Some I've know for ages
Most of my life, in fact
One in particular is definitely worth mentioning
Stacey, who I've known since I was 4...
That's 13 years
Which, to some, may not be a lot but it is most of my life
I'm hoping she'll read this
And also, probably no one else will
So this is pretty much a post to her
HI STACEY!
I feel bad that I've pretty much stolen her whole blog
And made my own
But I feel like I'm in her footsteps
In the lamest sense of the word
Because it's nothing epic
But it gives us another reason to be the same
In a way
Keeps us close
Like good friends should be
Like I hope we stay
Because she's definitely a friend worth keeping
And I'm glad we've been able to work through our issues
Like last year
We had a rough patch
But you wouldn't know it if you saw us today

So there you go.
My first post,
Dedicated to Stacey.

Always,
Forever
Friends.

(See, I even stole the single word per line ending!)
Oh well.
x