Malicious

I can smell coffee.
There is this pain right below my neck, in the centre of my spine.
This keyboard feels stiff under my fingers.
I'm a bit worried about the crim exam tomorrow, but I have plenty of time in the morning to pack in some last-minute revision.
Which is good!
But media is another story.. that one is less easy.
More hard, if you will.
But we shall cross that bridge when we get to it.
The last few days have been filled with too much work and not enough study.
And whilst work gives me money and study bores me,
I think study at this point is probably more important.
Although I am rather short on money right now.
Hopefully within 48 hours I will have been paid.
Conveniently.

What next?
Things are still beyond complicated.
But I'm trying to forget, just until Tuesday night. So again, about 48 hours.
Actually in exactly 48 hours it will be just after the end of NCIS, given it will be 21.34.
Tomorrow, though, I'm actually almost looking forward to.
It's just fear, after all.
I've had a bit of that lately, which is unfortunate.

ALSO PAIN.
My back is so bloody sore. And has been all week.
NOTE TO SELF: GO TO CHIRO.

Honey
and
Almond.
x

I Don't Dance

Nor can I play baseball really.
But that's okay!
So, talk about an eventful week.
Yeah, a lot has happened.
New experiences.
New feelings.
New fears.
New hopes.

I am afraid,
It's true.
I think I know why.
And I think I'm going to have to try pretty hard to get past the fear
And take it for what it's worth
And make the best of it.

It's different.
It's never been like this with anyone else.
And I'm hoping that means it will be better than it's ever been
Because mostly...
It's there
And then
It's not.
And that, sucks.
Although I think so far I'm quite sure that won't happen.

ANYWAY.
We
shall
see.
x

And At That Point There Was No Rain

His name is Steven.
I miss him terribly.
Every time he makes his way into my mind,
I hurt.
It's his 21st on Sunday.
I want to wish him the best.

That
is
all.

x

More Than A Feeling

This will be short.
For I am tired.
But my mind is rather thought-filled.
Feelings and emotions perhaps better left upon the shelf.
It's not all bad.
It makes me happy.

But I'm concerned that it will turn bad.
That it will pain somebody.
Who that somebody is, is yet undecided.

Bah.
That was shorter than I thought.
And didn't even get my point across.

NEVERMIND.
Seems to be a
waste
of
paint.

x

I Don't Care

For some reason this really pissed me off.
There is a dumb Facebook group that says 120 hours on L's is too many
There are a few things wrong with that.
Firstly, it's about the NSW laws.
I know for a fact that there are people from other states in the group.
Secondly. They can get their licenses at 17 up there.
QUIT YOUR WHINGING.
And to all those who are OLDER, and whinge about it.
ITS A VERY EASY TEST, IF YOU HAD TAKEN IT WHEN YOU WERE 16 YOU WOULD HAVE MISSED THE STUPID NEW LAWS.
Anyway.
The end.