My Day Off..

Today
Is my day off.
I worked all weekend, and I really can't be bothered doing any work or study..
So I've declared it a write off.
This morning, I went with Judy and her kids
To see...
COLIN BUCHANAN!

Hahahaha.
It was a lot of fun.

It's one of the things I missed, in my childhood.
Going to a childrens concert.
But it was good!

Also, I'm going to Stacey's soon, and we're going to have a fun-filled afternoon of..something.
Because we're awesome like that.

Woohoo!!

=]

Love
today.

x

Ginger Kisses and Made-up Mathematics

I have a few funny things to write.. that have happened in the last couple of days..

Tonight, while sitting outside Meg's party...in Vickie's dad's car... he says:
"Quick! Hurry up! They're going to think we're terrorists..sitting outside..with a funny box."

Yesterday, at Stacey's.. Georgia:
"What can I make with a ... polygon?"
Me: "Did you say POÄNGLE?"

Tuesday, at Stacey's .. we were making ginger kisses, with ginger biscuits from 2005, and Stacey tried to eat one but then spat it out and threw it away.
But...we figured the cream would soften them, so we made them anyway...
We got down to the last one, and because Stacey had thrown one out there was an odd one left, so we made a three-layer one.
Then...she remembered she had some leftovers from another packet she had been eating, so she got out the box...and opened it... AND THERE WERE THREE LEFT! We both just burst out laughing, almost fell over because it was so hilarious, we could have just made normal ones if we'd looked BUT NO, we ended up with all these normal ones and two 3-layer ones. Also the cream in the middle was purple, and therefore awesome.

Also yesterday at Stacey's...
"Jenny's a.. Jenny.. Jenny.."
"I like Shepard because it's a flock."

ALSO AT STACEY'S YESTERDAY (yes I spend a LOT of time there, and it's always funny)..
"I saw an eagle on a pole... I think it was an eagle..."

Ahh.
And there were more tonight.
But I forget many of them.
Apart from "OH Vickie you're so fine..." etc. Hahaha.

Also.
Adam.
I hope you don't read this.
But if you do.
I think you're just screwing with my head.
And if you care..just bloody well say so.
Say something.
I'll wait, you know me.
I'll hang around for no reason, just because I think it's a good idea. Or because you tell me to.
Yeah, I'm a pushover.
Use it to your advantage, like so many others.

Dammit.

Going.to.sleep.

Looking forward to what?

I considered it something to look forward to.
There was not a promise,
But a likelihood.
And I took that as good enough to hope for.
But it seems that I have possibly been wasting so much time
So much thought
And so much emotion.

Maybe, I am just overthinking it.

But I have a massive feeling that what I think is true.

Sure, it may not happen often.

But maybe this time I'll get lucky.

In one way
or
another.

Wrong.

It's wrong.
All wrong.
First off, I should be sleeping.
I shouldn't have worked 10 hours yesterday.
I shouldn't have been out late 2 nights in a row.
I shouldn't have been up early 2 mornings in a row.
I should not have messed up the OSPF configuration in our competition today.
I should not feel the way I do, about certain people.

BUT I DO.
What the hell can I do?
I shouldn't be worried about the end of school.
I shouldn't be awake still.
I shouldn't be so hard on myself, maybe.

BUT I AM.
Is it all screwed up?
And why?
Why have I screwed it up so badly?

Why are people so hypocritical?
And so contradictory?
They say one thing..
Then do another.
Or, say another thing to someone else, or somewhere else.

They don't care.
They couldn't give a shit either way.
Maybe they're a complete waste of time and emotion.

ONLY
TIME
WILL
TELL.

x

(PS. MOTHERFUCK.)

The End

I have a lot of trouble with a lot of things.
I have trouble understanding why people do things
I have trouble accepting the fact that in merely weeks I will be rid of high school forever
I have even more trouble accepting, and understanding, myself.

It seems to me that I take everything to an extreme.
If I laugh, it's usually very loudly, and at something very stupid.
If I am annoyed, it's usually shown in a loud and obnoxious way, and it's often caused by the most insignificant thing.
If I have feelings for someone, they are usually pretty strong, they come on quickly and can also disappear just as suddenly.
And my own emotions, most of the time I am either in a good mood or a bad mood, not in between.
It seems static, almost.
Like, I only have two options.
A switch. On or off.

I could be wrong though.
I may be basing these claims on the last few days, but I'm pretty sure it hasn't changed much.

And I like that. I don't do change very well.
Which is why I am having such a struggle with this end-of-school thing.
It will be such a massive difference, this year compared with next year.
And in between, I have WEEKS of holidays, in which to do basically whatever the hell I want.
Most likely it will consist of work, getting my license, getting a car, driving.....that's about it.

Narrow minded much?

But hey. I've waited long enough.
My license test is booked for my birthday..which is..3 months and 13 days away.

Between now and then..
Eight exams.
Cisco x2
Further x2
Biology
English
Methods x2.

So..
More than likely I will be neglecting this blog of sorts..
Not that anyone will really care.
I'll still be here.
Just not.. here.

As for this year.
My school days.
Life as I know it?

Our
Time
Is
Running
Out.

=/

One Whole Minute

In the past 48 hours
I have become completely obsessed with two different songs..
Both of which I shall post here
Because they are currently awesome.
I would like to point out, that as I do, I will most likely get bored of them
But not today.
So here they are...

Paramore: Crushcrushcrush

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
You need something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

Metro Station: Shake It

Let's drop!
Yeah, come on

I'll take you home
If you don't leave me at the front door
(Leave me at the front door)
Your body's cold
But girl, we're gettin' so warm
And I was thinking of ways
That I could get inside
(Get inside)

Tonight you're falling in love
Let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up
Here we go now

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Your lips tremble
But your eyes are in a straight stare
(In a straight stare)
We're on the bed
But your clothes are laying right there
And I was thinking of places
That I could hide
(I could hide)

Tonight you're falling in love
Let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up
Here we go now

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

I saw you dancing
And I couldn't get you off my mind
I could tell that you could tell
That I was taking my time
But I was thinking of ways
To get you to stay tonight
Body's shaking
Tell me off so I can turn off the lights

Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her like that?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
(Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it)
Shake shake,
Shake it

Yes.
There you have it..
A small insight into my brain for the last couple of days

OH BUT. I have one more.

Bright Eyes: Easy/Lucky/Free

Did it all get real? I guess it's real enough
They got refrigerators full of blood
Another century spent pointing guns
At anything that moves
Sometimes I worry that I've lost the plot
My twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts
I never really dreamed of heaven much
Until we put him in the ground
But it's all I'm doing now
Listening for patterns in the sound
Of an endless static sea
But once the satellite's deceased
It blows like garbage through the streets
Of the night sky to infinity

But don't you weep
(Don't you weep for them)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
Honey, don't you weep
(Don't you weep for them)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
As easy
Or free

Don't be a criminal in this police state
You'd better shop and eat and procreate
You've got vacation days, then you might escape
To a condo on the coast
I set my watch to the atomic clock
I hear the crowd count down until the bomb gets dropped
I always figured there'd be time enough
I never let it get me down
But I can't help it now
Looking for faces in the clouds
I've got some friends I barely see
But we're all planning to meet
We'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
All together for eternity

But don't you weep
(Don't you weep for us)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is no one as lucky
Honey, don't you weep
(Don't you weep for us)
Don't you weep
(Don't you weep)
There is nothing as lucky
As easy
Or free

Or free
Or free
Or free

There is nothing
There's nothing
There's nothing


I have Stacey to thank for that last one..
And the first one, actually.

I think, combined, they sum up what I've been thinking lately.
If you take small parts from each
Yes.

I know what I'm talking about.
I have a messed up head.

THE END!
I have to go.

:O